See what kind of love the Father has given to us, that we should be called children of God; and so we are. The reason why the world does not know us is that it did not know him. Beloved, we are God's children now, and what we will be has not yet appeared; but we know that when he appears we shall be like him, because we shall see him as he is. And everyone who thus hopes in him purifies himself as he is pure.
1 John 3:1-3
I am a sinner. Though Christ lives in me, I mess up everyday. This week has been particularly a more difficult week. I have not loved Owen & Eden as I should; in fact, I have been impatient & harsh at times. I have cried most of the days this week. One day, I felt like the best thing for me to do for my family would be to run away.
Then something amazing happened.
Jon cancelled some plans yesterday and allowed me to go find a quiet place in the house to pray. So I went our bathroom (the only place in the house where you can't hear anyone) and talked with God about it awhile. God has refreshed me with His love for me. Yesterday, he reminded me through Psalm 61:2 that He can "Lead me to the rock that is higher than I." And all day long, when my amount of love had ended he reminded that through His grace I could love more. When my patience ended, He could bring me more patience. When I thought I wasn't going to make it, He could carry me.
Then this morning I read the passage in 1 John 3:1-3. And, oh my goodness, I am so thankful for His love for me. Because of Jesus' death on the cross, I can stand before God as "holy & perfect". However, while we are still on earth we still have our natural body and don't live out the perfection that Jesus has given us. Which bring us back to what I was saying at the beginning of how depraved I am and how much I need Jesus daily. This verse gave me such hope in remembering that He is not done transforming me. The woman I was this week doesn't have to be the woman I'm going to be next week, next year or next decade. I am His masterpiece and He is still working out my character to look more like Him. What I may be has not yet appeared but when I see Him one day I will be like Him and oh what a glorious day that will be!
Here are some pictures of Owen & Eden just because I know you love them. :)